Originally Posted by
dodint
I know it's absurd and all but I feel like I might never be happy again. I'm just so profoundly upset with life right now. I keep waiting for that day when I'm caught up on everything and can just relax for a minute, and it never comes. I've been going non-stop since 2006 or so and I'm so drained from it all. It looks like 2021 might be relatively laid back, but we're thinking of moving to Europe so who the fuck knows.
I'm really considering taking time off from school to slow things down. But I'm on track to be finished in Fall of 2019 so I keep telling myself to keep pressing. It's making me intensely miserable, though. To the point that I can't even internalize it and hide it from people anymore. I'm starting to have almost an open contempt for my job, and home life is a rut. Argh.