You guys aren't getting it. It's easy to say and not easy to do. Rikadyn, I cannot begin to understand your troubles and neither can anyone else here. We hope to be supportive as we can and I am sure the guys are just trying to help. Alas, there is not much we can really do. I hope things improve for you, pal. It is frustrating to see people struggle and not be able to help.
In other news, I really miss socializing with other humans in person.